Scripted Notions: I Have a Headache

I have a headache. It might be because I'm fighting a killer chest cold; it might be because I have a lot on my mind.

Friday night, my ex-husband asked me to come down and visit with my son because he and his wife had a stressful week and needed a break. Not to mention, my son and his father have NOT been getting along of late. My ex also mentioned that he'd like to discuss my son moving back to my home after spending two years in his. So, even though I had other plans and really needed to rest because of this cold, I ended up driving almost 500 miles in 36 hours and discussing my sons future for hours into the night. It was actually a good visit, but it was exhausting.

Our son changed residences because of his behavior/attitude. And though I would LOVE to think that I've grown enough to handle him this time around, of course I second guess myself. I also miss having him around but at the same time remember how horrible we can be together. This will be a huge adjustment...and deserves to be my top priority.

I have a March 31st deadline for this project that I'm working on. Though I'm more confident today than ever about what needs to get done, it's still an overwhelming process for me. I'm not accustomed to being at this responsibility level of a project. Because of this chest cold, I've missed 2 1/2 days of work this week that I really couldn't afford to miss.

Our customers for this project really want us to visit their site one more time prior to the March 31st date, but my boss won't authorize that trip. So, we won't be going out there until two weeks later. I know the customers aren't happy with that, but there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

There are a couple of other issues with this project that the customers would like to see done differently, but my boss has given his opinion (and his orders) and I have no choice but to march to those orders. It puts me in an awkward position when talking with the customers.

I need to schedule a meeting with our customers here to discuss the changes we're making for this project. I want their approval and need their input. But I'm scared to death that they'll have several suggestions that we'll have to incorporate. And I'll need to figure out how to do that without upsetting our west coast customers OR missing our deadline.

I will probably work 6-8 hours this Saturday to finish a document that needs to be done by the end of the day Tuesday...different project.

I went to our first Relay for Life meeting tonight to find out that the person that took over Captain duties from me last year for my old team is stepping down. So, my plan to start a new team is probably going to have to wait until next year since I probably need to Captain the old team again. I don't think I could maintain my current schedule and Captain two different Relay teams.

This chest cold has been a huge part of my life for the last three weeks. Apparently, that's the case for lots of people. Unfortunately, I agreed to read at mass this weekend and I'm afraid I'm going to spend much of that reading coughing into the microphone. Even worse, I'm supposed to sing for Easter Sunday mass. Of course, that's four weeks away. But since there's been no sign of this cold going away, I'm not all that sure that I'll even be able to sing in a month.

I've been concerned with a couple of things about my health lately, but I can't seem to find the words to convey that to either one of my doctors. One doctor indicated that he'd like blood work done. But since I was going to be seeing the second doctor, he didn't order the blood work, just forwarded this information on. When I asked the second doctor about it, he didn't think it was necessary. So, I followed up with the first doctor, who conveniently changed his mind about needing the results.

My 7th grade religion class frustrates me to no end. Thank God we only have three more classes this year! And I'm ashamed that I feel that way.

I have three greeting cards sitting on my desk that were signed by my co-workers that should have been mailed last weekend. I also need to make, sign, and send cards to half a dozen other people sometime this weekend. I should really make the time to do that; it'll at least be enjoyable.

I left my Blackberry on my desk. This poses two problems. If my boss replied to the emails I sent late in the day asking for his direction, I won't be able to respond to those. AND I have an alarm set on it to go off at 8am. If I don't get to work before it goes off, it will annoy everyone in the office until someone decides to shut the darn thing off. I hate the idea of being that disruptive to my co-workers before I even show up.

And did I mention that I have this huge headache? That's going to make it difficult to fall asleep.

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