Thursday, April 28, 2016

Seven Word Status

picture by Dorothea Lange
Struggling this week, though not quite depressed.

Monday, April 25, 2016

Friday, April 22, 2016

Chance of Rain

I cried today.

That's the first time I've cried in a long time.

It's a stupid story, really.

One of our instructors wanted something faxed.  Even though I was working at the reception desk, I told him I wasn't sure how to use the fax machine, which is just one of the many functions of our huge copier.

Truth is, I was just filling in at the reception desk.  I do that on Fridays.

Anyway, I explained to him that I had never used our fax machine and wasn't sure I could help him.  He thought it was entertaining and proceeded to make fun of me for not knowing how to use the equipment.  I didn't handle the mocking all that well.

He didn't apologize for upsetting me.  He just tried to explain over and over again why I should get over myself.  I then apologized to him for not knowing what I was doing... though I did get his document faxed on the third try.

I didn't break down for the instructor.  But I did later.  And I struggled to stop crying for awhile.

I'm fine now.  And I recognize that I'm tired and maybe ready for the weekend.  I'm going walking with Mom this afternoon and I'll be sure not to cancel that event.  I'll be okay.  No major depression this time, let's hope.

It's just been a long time since I cried like that.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

The Optimists Creed



I promise myself…

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of
others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the
greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile
to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I
have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side,
so long as I am true to the best that is in me.
Christian D. Larson

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Seven Word Status

Haven't seen my counselor in three months.
(I've been depression free since early in December.)