Saturday, September 12, 2015
Mostly Sunny Skies
When I'm weepy, I cry for no reason at all. Or I cry for every reason I can think of. I cried when Serena lost her tennis match. This affects me in no way at all, but I was so sad for her. Ugh! When I'm weepy, I find every excuse to cry.
Lucky for me, today no tears. I feel great! I.FEEL.GREAT! Thank You, Lord!
I have to admit, every day I am acutely aware of how I feel. I analyze my feelings and reactions each and every day without fail. Oftentimes before the sun even comes up. It's probably not healthy. But I don't think I could stop doing it even if I wanted to. ...and sometimes I want to. So when I say I've been depression free, I assure you, that statement has been fully vetted.
I often wonder if I'll ever graduate from this stage. I wonder if a day will ever go by without me analyzing how I feel about things. Today, I can't imagine what that would even look like. But my counselor would probably tell me that I'll get there one day. I can wait. As long as I'm depression free between now and then, I can be patient.
And I can happily live with how things have been these last few months, mostly sunny skies. Praise the Lord for answered prayers!